life

its been.. 4 days since i broken up wif him. its seem meaningless.
i want him back in my life. i really want tuh. his my love. i'll wait for him.
how long it takes, i will wait for him..


okay.......
i will blog smemore if i have the time. im now so busy.
nid tuh prepare for a party.
haha

okay??
i love nasir. nasir.

fyi everyone.
i dont like/love imran!!

ITS OVER. 9.24pm.


let the hurt be the past.


nisa still loves nasir no matter what!

update

hey yarr. bitches..
okay.
tuh the hell hu tag my blog. haha. thanks for hateing me. CAUSE I dun even care if u hate me!haha. one hate me. all hate me.
haha.

okay..
yestd was likee so fun. FIREWORKS was great. haha. this makes me cry!
someone:wtf!maut.
me:asl?the bunga api.its very beautiful
someone:just like you.
gawd, i then cry. haha, from a SAD face tuh a smilling face!
haha.im like.. feeling .. oohh..
natasha and danial are great, they REALLY chheer me up!..
thanks babe.
iwan,mia,nami,zal,mira.. are great FRIENDS.
haha.
u guys are the best. i love you.
haha.esp.. byk sial ORG. mcm nk mati.
haha.we tried tuh board the last train..
but last bus was 11.30.
mcm maner nk balik?
haha.
soo.. we reached hougang at 12.00
meet darren again!!
haha.
reached home at 12.40
haha.
soo..
went showerring.
then WAITING for him.so i culd call him.
haha.
tapii die tdo.
haha.
he beep me at 5.26a.m.
haha.he called
gave me missed call.
haha.
he woke up EARLY,
like i told him too.
hahaha.
friday, was likee. i didnt went npCC! haha.
so.. 5.30pm went back tuh skul.haha.meet my friends.
hhaa.
went tuh hougang, reached like 8+!!
haha. den about 9.30pm
went off tuh meet DARREn.
goshh he was hot.
haha.
soo we went lepaking.
haa.
i called nasir. and chat wif him!oh..

so nasir lied.
he didnt went out wif me. INSTEAD wif his friends!
damn tuh him!!


tuhday..19 augyy..
YULS BIRFDAY, happy birthday boii.stay cute like always.
haha./
so, tuhhday.. at about 3. i went out. meet, zair, imran, mira.
haa.
doo our lit project.
ahmad and zul came by.
about 6 .
we all GO separate ways.
hhaa.
He sent me tuh the interchange.
have a nice chat.
haha.
glad he didnt like the girl anymore.
haha. i missed an 854 bus.
and came 811.
he was supossed tuh take the bus,
but he said.
"tkper,i wait for you"
haha.
so i board the bus at 6.17pm
reached hougang nearly 7.pm
haha.
no one was at home!!
im damn mad!!
haha.
so i gtgg.
hha.
this was the much i can blog.
and wan,
dont worrie.
i will help.
zal,me,iwan!same fate lies for us.

haha.
you can have her all you like. i simply dont care.if you think she is the one, let me off, go with her. im happpy if ure happy.

whatever it takes,my heart is for you.
nasir ali.=))

i may seem not important tuh you animore.
bye2.
u can have her, nasir . youre happpy. im happy.
im SERIOUSLY in love with you.but if this
what ure gonna treat me, LET ME OFF.i cant stand the pain.

thanks DEAR, for making me smile.
haha.
=))
sleep tight all.

nisa loves you all.
esp. nasir.
imran tuh!

mri berBLOGGING

hi peoples.hah! im weird.im supposed tuh be SAD. but i aint. hah!
its niCE SLITTING. gosh, it makes me HAPPY. im smilling.laughing all to myself,. im getting my nerves on my sisters. CHIIBEI!!! kau pei!!
im shedding BLOOD. no more tears.
thanks iwan for helping. you are a great fren tuh have.
i simply miss AMIRA OMAR... gosh when i need u, ure not there. GIRL get back home fast. i need tuh talk tuh yar.

nasir, im sorry , whatever happens...
U WILL ALWAYS STAY. NEVER FADE..

i love you.


imran went fishing. hah!!
fair chance. im going tuh...
TUHMOROOE.
haha.
at lower pierce,
care tuh FOLLOW?
haha.
will be borrowing BOOKS.
library madness.
hah!!

im seriously gonna buy a new penknife.
mine's are BLUNT.
its like what the hell.
haa.



ive cried.ive shed. what more u want?
i dont seem tuhh undestand you.
all i can see, uve change.
but i wont blame you.
im changing tuh.
FOR THE BETTER(i hope)

nasir, your heart has becume mine since 14.02.07
i will never forget you boi.
if this is how OUR relationships wud last,
den im out of my WERDs.
im dead.

and PEOPLEE!!!

if i ever failed in this RELATIONSHIP,
trust me, i wont ever like any GUYS at all.
im GONNA BE A FULLY LESBIAN OR A BUTCH!!

this i promise u people.

!!!!

nisa is here,
slitting
shedding.
shes not dead.
still alive.

just someone help her.

nisa loves HER ROMEOS.

nasir.<33.
imran.<3!

soriie

hmm.. IM BLOGGING RYTE HERE JUST TUH SAY DAT I AM SOORRRRYY!!!!

nasir. im sorrie my dear...

ohh

yestd, was EVE of national day. haha. need tuh perform again. it was scary at first. haha. nasir was SHOWING his fernando torres.! gawd , that guy is like a gay, haha.=)) imran ignore me the whole time. kinnda DEVASTED. only haizair doesnt. i dunch noe y he KEPT ignoring me. hmm.... the school was in red and white and OBviosuly some hu are wearing pink? haha. FUNNy lar.. i do spot some wearing pink tees. haha. it was funny. it was enterprise day too. haha. gosh the school was like a "PASAR" malam.seeling FOODS tuhh gift. wad the hell? haha. . azhar, hajar, me, bibero, mia. we went walking2 tuhgether the WHOLE time. it was syiokk. haha. BIBERO, nidds coke. went tuh 2E9 class stall which sells COKE. haha. ice was OUT of stocked. so, we went searching FOR COKE! haha. finnally saw it at one of those stall near the canteen. haha, BUT that BIBERO isnt STASIFIED. haha. so we did bought drinks at 2e9 stall. haha. bibero did spot ifaH. haha. kau mreepekk ar boi. haha. stupid azhar"sluar kau kotor"! cibei, when my sluar isnt kotor. HE wud say "RESPECT"? huh what was that supposed tuh mean? haha. so nasir asked me tuh keep his FERNANDO torres picta. haha.
and all i did was tuh SILAT it. haha. bibero held the paper. ahha. hajar was first tuhh kick it. and she does it. WHEN its my turn, SUDDENLY, nasir MUNCUL. gosh, someone just wanted tuh sabo me. !! haha.
so i thought nasir was angry at me, haha. mia ask him, and LUCKY he wasnt, haha. so waited for nasir tuh finished his basket ball tingy, and we went off tuhh NP. hahaha. otw, saw haizair and imran. i said hi tuh IMRAN. and guess what? he ignored me AGAIN. broken heart sak me,
!!!!
=((((.. felt like crying tuh PIECES..

so afterr going NP, we went safra. haha.
i thought of playing bowling, but NONE wanted tuhh!
cm cibei. haha.
hajar and mia walk off. tuh home.
iwan had a SOCCER tingy, nasir WAS SUPOSSed tuh follow him
but instead he went off wif me,.
alamak da boii arr.
okay. we sat at mcd for like 2hrs?
ahaha.
amira, nami,nasir, me.
okay, nasir i love it.
haha.
=))
amira was taking picturess at nasir handphne.
so my job is tuh DELETE it .on monday.
haha.

ate MCSPICY.
haha.
delecious FOODy..

haha.......

went home KENA SCOLDED.
cibeii.
haha.

im tired , but i still need tuh go tuhh NGAJI.
im tired. haha.
msg nasir even in ngaji.
hahaha.

10 i reached home..
EVERYONE went out.
leaving me at home ALONE!

den ada ar manusia nie MSG. im damn happy he/she MSGes me.
i waited for all his/hers MSGes. haha.
thanks for making happy.=)


i msg amira
and tell her the SITUATION.
amira undestands.
so its for me to DECIDE.
hmm...

guesshh..

haha

dats all i niidd tuhh bloog..

haha.

i love nasir.
i love HIM.
please my dear, please.


he/she. forget about her/him. i know u wuld make a good choice.
i hope u wud find a girl/boii hu u like. i noe u can. so im waiting FOR he tuhh finally realise how much he meantt tuh me.

its gonna end

so here i am blogging, just the sake of blogging. not anything. people may remark on me. but i dont care. . . people are just thinking about themselves. and never think about others.everyone got feelings. its just that some cant express it. people may take someone for granted. some may toy around. so im here blogging to clear some DOUBTS.


you may see me, always with imran.
yes i admit. his CLOSE to me, FOR a good reason.
its not we have anything going on tuhgether.
you maay want tuh noe. but all are kept in my heart. never tuh be told..
im hurting. and all you did was tuh bleed it more..


days are out numbered.
i change just because of you.
i did it for you.
and all you did was tuh break my FUCKING heart.
you make me CRY 5 times.
wad the hell.
u may seem tuh be focusing on other things,
but all this while, im focusing on YOU.


hurt and pain.
all you will go through iin love.
ive felt it before.
its SUCKS my dear.

i guess thiss shud be the end.
the close for all it happened.



blood brothers are right.
blood sisters are not neccesary at all.
we noe.
we tried.
but we wont try anymore.
all are useless.
so u damn
im waiting for the explaination.



tuh imran.
i guess u shud noe how i felt this few days.
days are out numbered.
u make me shed.u make me bleed. thanks. i mean.
you make me CRY, smile, MAD, happy.
i shud not say it here CAUSE SOME people tend to think DIFFERENTLY.
but what i said tuh you IS TRUE.
for i nurkhairunnisa keeps her werd.
and i always will.
you can always count on me tuh be a fren!
all iwant is for you tuh be happy.
when ure happy.
then im happy.
when ure sad,
im there tuh cheer u up.
i guess you and me WONT be close like we used tuh
CAUSE OF SOME PEOPLE!!
arghh.damn tuh them,
but a promise is always a promise.
i wont FORGET.
=)))
even ur HEARt may beat for others, but my heart BEATS for you.
i dont mean anything. but its true. this may hurt tuh some.
but i have tuh say, what i have tuh say.









tuh some people hu are not happy wif him.
just FARK off.
you hate him?you hate me TOO!.
lay ur hands on him? GUESS WHAD? i wont ever forgive myself.
u can see the change in me.
i dont care.
i feel im dead.lost. DIED. dead again.
but all i can tell.
my heart beats for you.

and to

nasir my dear

dont think wrongly.
i guess u shud noe.
if u think im lying.
then its ur fault.
i feel life is meaningless without u and imran.
its a fact,
u may want tuh say anything,.
but A DECISION is always a DECISION!
you cant seperate a FREN!!
everything you do tuh imran, will have the effect on me too.
im not being RUDE, but its a fact.



im just saying what i have in my mind.
i will repeat it back.
if u want me tuh.


THE TRUTH MAY HURT, BUT THE LIES MAY BLEED.



so gueess wad?
im trying tuh change.
so do bear wif me.
i may cry. acT EMOTIANALLY.
but guess wad?its for my good.
its not tuh late tuh REALISE.


i hope you ppl wuld undestand.





niesha is once here.
but once she's GONE.
dont come SEARCHING.