yh

every single day, i keep falling harder for you. never mind if u never did like talk t me or what soever. even tho u did go online and talk to people without talking t me, i didnt mind. i kept the flame alive. i seriously like you alot! thats why im like this. idk why u made that decision, but if youre happy with it. so be it): im used to people doing this to me. so its okay. all everyone did is to think about themselves and nvr think bout how others did feel. just like you and me. we both think about how we feel but never did try to understand what others am thinking. thanks for being a bitch(: now i know why people hates bitches, cause why? they hurt. and wanna know something? every single day, id listen t every song u have ever dedicated to me thinking it will all work out. every single time i pray, i pray to god that he'll bless us. but sigh. this is fate. im crying like one dog right now. its been quite sometime since i cried this bad. the last was when i was with luqman but that was like super far back approx 7 months ago?nevertherless, its your decision by doing so. im still gonna keep this flame alive and hope things will be alright soon. i dont mind the wait. cause why? you're worth it. <2

Moved to lj(:

nisarsenal.lj.com.

i just can't smile without you.
met luv, asraff n' his gf. it wasn't great. terrible things happened.
i'm shagged. i can't stop singing and i'm gonna work overtime tomorrow and the next few days.
that traceyinny wedges is so in my "I Want List".
&&i'm in need for those faded jeans. sighhhhhhhhhh. i gotta wait. no more cash siaaa)':


get to meet baby next week sia. k best.
gonna stop working next wednesday. then i'm free to chillax, meet my friends all. yay me.
then my pay will be like Super ALOT^^ haahahahhahhahaha.
k byebye.
i love luqman bin mohd dahlan.

bear it wiv me, my blog is a disaster. i know. gonna shift to tumblr * when i'm freeeeee*

byebye.

Love life suckszxc! ahhh!

i miss friends.
its 4 months already baby and i'm seriously in luv wiv you. still strong k(:
ahhh, fox dyed tube is mine,
i gotta lose weight. go on a diet. eat vege's. ahhhh, shitzxc.
i'm getting darker. hopefully a lil taller. i neeed new jeans. and i luv you red vans'sy.


bye

omg, work is super tiring today! met luv after work. had my early dinner at pastamania.

luv kept "di siao-ing" me. Can't wait for saturday^^

hope luv ain't giving me any other reasons/excuses. What to wear ehhhhhh?

am gonna stop working at th end of march. oh alrite. will update on saturday then.

bbq later on. ooh my. i'm drooling for diy fooods. hahaha.

i miss luv and miss my girls.

is this it?

i feel so cheated. i feel so used. shake this feeling off. stupid past. you suck.


i need to shop. cause shopping is my remedy. i luv you boyfriend cause you're amazing.
i need my boyfriend warm hugs. yes, that'll help too.(:
gotta work today. urgh, i dread to work. work is dreadful. uhhhh. gonna buy that pants later. i hope. and maybe , i'm gonna meet cotton on and fox. haha. luv you. i wanna cut my hair. ahh. decisions. i hate this. gonna go out wiv luv this saturday like at last and shopping date wiv nur amira on friday, k, cepat la friday and saturday!!



fabregas, i need you. haha.
bye

Gamba lama. Takde gamba baru.

k. da lama tak update.
Been really busy wiv work. heh, excuses siaa nisa.
I miss my girlfriends alot. ALOT mind ya. Ohh. Ohh. Happee birthday boyfriend.
Watch-ed my name is Khan wiv me family. superb mayne:D
&& now, its like 12.50am, i just have this sudden urge to shop siaa. Grrzxc.
Luqman's gonna kill me. Heh.
Oh yes. Went shopping again just now. Sorry guys cause i made you guys wait on me.
Heh. I love you Forever 21. Fox, Miss Selfridge, Dr Martens, Uniqlo meet you guys soon k. I love you guys too. you too cotton on. hahaha
when i go shopping, i won't be bringing luqman along causeeeeeee he won't allow me to buy anything. Grr. K, i better shop like mad FAST. haha. April is soon. Soon is April.
school starting soon. Can't wait. i Just missing being in a school wiv students. hahaha. L.A.M.E(:
Okay, is this long enough? err, yes! hahaha.,
I'm off to hit the sack. hoping to meet luqqqqqqq later.



Till then. haha. And i'd update my blog in a few days time k.

i miss you hair.

i gotta stop spending my money. haha. my closet is full of clothes now. *gulp*

Aaron ramsey broke his leg. Omg. i cried mayne. Haha.

Work is tiring. i miss my girls. sigh. we no longer meet nor get updates from each other kan?

nevermind, everyone's busy. (:

I gotta shop for school bag, school shoes.

and that red vans shoes, is mine:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!

And b, lets go flash and splash, i wanna buy that volcom shirt:D

haha!

Aston villa gonna win today!

And i'v updated my blogshop. Do support and i'm like some cotton on freak.

I have tons of clothes/beanies/cap/shorts from cotton on. Can bukak own branch! haha.

uniqlo here i come, see you on monday. i'm gonna buy you super nice v neck shirt(;

I love my life. I get to shop and shop and shop. haha.

baby took my 200 away. *SOBS* he's refraining me from shopping. haiyo.

i need new shorts/skirts/slippers/sandals/shoe/and that volcom shirt. Alamak, suke aku.

i love to shop.(:

The past keeps haunting. The future is always changing. The present is hurting. Tell me about it.

I won't be updating that much. My internet is giving me hella of problem, am trying to figure it out.

I dread to shop la. haiyo.

Basically, nothings up wiv life. just th normal routine. I need to relax mayne. I hardly any time for myself to like seriously REST and stay at home for one whole day. Pay day is today and its way lesser than i thought it would be. Grrr.

alright, TOODLES

and its nine months. He's yet to wish. sigh

Im gonna be on hiatus for the next few days/weeks.
Some probs cropped up/i'm busy wiv my own life too.
There are tons of pictures to be uploaded. But i'd just post some. V lazeee.


Mira, al, luqman and myself celebrated my birthday at downtown. Well, I waited for them for like, 3 hours? haha! They surprised me wiv a cake. Awwww. Love you guys loads.
Then We just catch up on each others life. And i miss mira and nat. Well spent on th eve of my birthday.


Met baby th next day and we spent quality time together. And he bought me a necklace. Ngawww.
He treated me to haagen-dazs icecream. DIVINE:D
Then we bought those long candies. DIVINE:D And some salesperson gave me a nail buffer for free. :D DIVINE.
then went over to town to meet mira. And baby treated me to cotton on!:D DIVINE.
I love him. I love life. Thanks b!:D


Met isk. Watch movie. FUN! A year since we met. HAHA! Thanks small boy!:D


Thats all. Enjoy the pics:!D TOODLES.

k. a quick post cause im meeting someone later on^^
I'd blog about how i spent my swelling great seventeen-th birthday:D, some other time.
I Love Luqman bin Mohd Dahlan biggies!

it may seemed like a joke to you. but those words just hit me. HARD.
sigh. I've never complain, Yet.

Sigh. I can't take this anymore. We've been fighting for like a week? approx.
I need a break. All i think about is you, rusydi anak azman.


baby and i had a Reversi Game just now. ohmee. i had fun. baby look v cute when he's serious.
haha. Luv you b. Muaaah :x!


K bye.


i miss my girls alot. siggggggggggggggggggggggh

Gee. I don't understand some people. For goodness sake, you already have a MATE and you can still think of loving another person? Urgh. Then there's this someone who thinks he/she is some Mr/Ms perfect. Oh cmon people. Grow up will ya?


I'm not in good terms wiv my v good people. Sigh. I love my boyfriend cause his the best.
& i get to meet him tomorrow. Weeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee:D
And my phone is ready for collection and i've lost each and every of my friends numbers.
Ps; i don't even remember my boyfriend's number. HAHA.
&& i find myself having the urge to shop for clothes EVERYDAY. I need a new earpiece. A NEW SHOE.*MUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM* That oxford heels. and moreee clothes.
Oh yes. new bag too:D
And i can't wait for pay day! Oooooooooooooooooh. B, Lets go shopping!:D hehehehheehheh!
for sure he'd kill me.haha!:D

Toodles. Off watching Th game:D











GLORIOUS ARSENAL!

am missing baby so much. he's asleep. Awwwwww. so cute. i love you b
K bye!:D

Oh, i'm sick. I thank boyfriend for passing the disease to me! haha! i love you b!
I love working at my aunts shop cause its super relaxing k. All i do is to serve people and thats it.
Its like an hour job and i get paid 20 bucks for it. I just hate the distance. its tedious.
And i made many new friends while working. K great! MY birthday is like in 11 days time!


basically, there's nothing else to blog about. My life is boring. And im gaining weight, I swear.
and im getting darker too! Grrr.
K bye!

Gonna be on hiatus for the moment. Maybe taking that slower route isn't that bad after all.
contemplating what route to choose. Sighs. Life ain't that easy right?
I need a new mind set. I need to change. I know, i gotta work hard for all this cause i can't expect things to happened by itself right?
I've disappoint two of my very best parents in the whole wide world. And i don't wish to disappoint them any further. Mum and dad, i know you'd be reading my blog, i just wanna say that i love you guys alot! Sigh, and thanks mum for yesterday's Long talk.



Is it wrong to pour out all my feelings to you? Its not that i'm unsure of your feelings towards me, its just that i feel that way. I'm neither blaming you nor accusing you of all those things. Cause i know, you're not that kind of person. Is it a sin to tell you how i feel? then whats the purpose of me having a boyfriend when i can't even let out my feelings to you? Only god knows, this strong and overwhelming feeling i have for you. You may say you know me best, but actually, you're nowhere close to it. I'm crying like a big baby right now. IF only you know how i feel. I need you so bad right now. I really do.


TOODLES.